Friday, June 26, 2009

soak up the sun

Remember Sheryl Crow's 2002 song, "Soak Up the Sun?" Today on my long run (yes, it was sunny) I was thinking about a line in it. Below I have pasted the lyrics
(from http://www.elyrics.net/song/s/sheryl-crow-lyrics.html) Which line do you think it was?

My friend the communist
Holds meetings in his RV
I can't afford his gas
So I'm stuck here watching TV
I don't have digital
I don't have diddly squat
It's not having what you want
It's wanting what you've got

[CHORUS:]
I'm gonna soak up the sun
Gonna tell everyone
To lighten up (I'm gonna tell 'em that)
I've got no one to blame
For every time I feel lame
I'm looking up o I'm gonna soak up the sun
I'm gonna soak up the sun
I've got a crummy job
It don't pay near enough
To buy the things it takes
To win me some of your love
Every time I turn around
I'm looking up, you're looking down
Maybe something's wrong with you
That makes you act the way you do
Maybe i am crazy too

[CHORUS]

I'm gonna soak up the sun
While it's still free
I'm gonna soak up the sun
Before it goes out on me
Don't have no master suite
I'm still the king of me
You have a fancy ride, but baby
I'm the one who has the key
Every time I turn around
I'm looking up, you're looking down
Maybe something's wrong with you
That makes you act the way you do
Maybe I am crazy too

[CHORUS]

I'm gonna soak up the sun
Got my 45 on
So I can rock on.



It's not having what you want
It's wanting what you've got


I had an incredible conversation with DOAD last night about our hopes, needs, wants and ways to make these become realities.

Is this merely a trite colloquialism? Something from some radio tune without much meaning? At first blush, sure the phrase can be read as "be satisfied," "don't assume what you don't have is somehow better than what you do." On further reflection, however, perhaps part of what strikes such a chord with me is the either/or. Can't it be wanting what you have AND having what you want?

I sure LOVE what I have. To the extent, though, that I "want what I have," can't I also have what I want (say, additional 'things' in the future)? This kind of quest for me is not a longing or desire to fill a gap from my current existence. Instead, it is about coming to recognize all that is possible with what I have. In this way, the working toward is not in opposition to what IS today, but intimately connected to what is present in the here and now.

OK, I'll admit maybe this is all a little too deep a reading for a song called "soak up the sun!" I really wonder, still, about this interplay between present and future.

I finally (seem to have) figured out how not to dwell in the past and how not to project everything onto tomorrow. Yet, navigating the subtle (and not so gentle) blending of what is 'here and now' and what goals, hopes, aspirations I have that extend into 'tomorrow and beyond' is somewhat trickier.

All I know for sure is that life with DOAD - a partnership that has facilitated, encouraged, nurtured, supported and in so many other ways contoured my mothering journey, my career and my sense of self and efficacy in the world - is exactly what I need and want, for today and tomorrow.

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